This entry is about 19 days late. I ended up working through my Winter break and still don't have a grasp on what day it is. I am still very much in vacation mode, even though school starts on Tuesday. I am registered for four Master's classes and on track to graduate in December. Despite several warnings from my advisors and even the head of my program that four classes and a full time job were way too much for anyone to handle, I managed to survive. Cranky with very little sleep but I did.
I am currently working on a thesis on how Tumblr and online fandoms can influence the very content producers and writers create for television. Thank you Teen Wolf! Needless to say it's like I'm speaking a foreign language when I explain it to most of my professors, but they remark that it's brilliant nonetheless. I've touched on issues of hegemony and homophobia on television and have even gotten a couple of bids from seasoned doctoral staff members about co-author options should I choose to publish. Mostly I'm just looking to rush towards the finish line.
Along with grad school, I have been working in sports marketing for the last six months. It has provided me with some of my most challenging responsibilities to date but I couldn't be prouder of how far I've come. Not only have I put aside most of my self-doubt I have surprised myself time and time again. I am very thankful for the experience and the portfolio boost. I don't know of very many others who can say they've designed a pizza box top that has been distributed throughout 3 major cities or single-handedly planned an entire event that was complemented by ESPN. I've never been very into sports but I have made it my mission to learn as much as I can. If only to say that I did. The long hours were another deciding factor in pushing through grad school at an accelerated pace though.
I take school and my work very seriously but I also want to finish and experience what is beyond these castle walls. I got a taste of life outside of everything I've ever known this summer and it is all I crave now. I also miss having my boyfriend around all the time. He's coming to visit soon and we've talked about possibly moving in together, so I may be crossing that off of my check list soon. It's weird to think that it may just be possible to have everything you've ever wanted. I feel as though I blinked one second and was suddenly an adult with my own apartment, a bachelor's degree, sharing it all with the greatest, most inspiring person I have ever had the pleasure of knowing.
I no longer find myself staring off wishing and hoping because most of my dreams are now well within grasp. A perfect life filled with husky puppies and adventurous vacations is not too far off on the horizon. I credit Brenden with reigniting my passion and determination because a year ago I was feeling hopeless and stuck.
Now I can see the light at the end of this tunnel, and I am trying my best to hustle towards it.